I REALLY DID FAST YESTERDAY! O CALORIES THE WHOLE DAY! It was such an amazing feeling. I just kept running on this high. It also help that I was talking to this guy online. The bad part(cause of course there has to be one!). . .he's 24 and lives in Egypt! So that makes him 10years-older than me! Yeah so I'm confused because he so wonderful and into me! Please someone knocks some sense into me!
Anyway lets move on to today, which was awful! :( I ate 320cals. over my 500cals. I don't even remember why?! I'm so disgusting! My brother then proceeded to tell me this one kid in his class called me "a real fat ass! Queen of the fat asses!" Now why did my very own brother tell me this when he knows I hate to hear negative shit about me. So I ran to the bathroom and purged until my tongue and throat started to ache a little. Wow. This is the first time I've done this since early May in the schools bathroom because I ate peanut butter crackers. So now I'm feeling shitty-er cause I'm already sick. Now I go to take my cold shower for punishment of the binge and maybe I'll update later(cause I didn't get to say everything I wanted to).
Tomorrow is a redo of today.
Stay strong,beautiful,and with Ana.
<3Mimi<3
Sorry you purged, dear=\ It's a truly horrible feeling. Also, it sucks that your brother told you that. I would get so upset too. I hope you feel better soon!
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