I Want To Be Beauty, Not The Beast!

I was watching Beauty and the Beast today. You know that Disney animated movie. Anyways all I could think while watching was how small Bells waist was, or her arms, heck even though I can't see her legs I bet they're thin! I wish I looked like her. Yes I am jealouse of a cartoon! I'm sorry but for once I want to be THE BEAUTY and not THE BEAST. Cause guess I what? That what it is. I'm the beast right now. But as long as I stay true to my friend Ana, both her and I can be beauties together.

Now that I'm done with my crazy rant(I hope)today wasn't so bad. I was just bored a bit. I wish I had an ana buddie to text but whatever. So yeah I was extermely bored and I felt so lonely. I feel like no one reads this blog at all. I don't have any fellow anerexic friends to go to for support. I feel like a lonely little girl who is so lost. Looking at all these great pro-ana blogs and seeing all these people who follow them. And I see the people who run these blogs as my ana heros. So I try my best to fit in amd gain support and aceptance from people who have similar issues. I want people who some what understand me.

Oopps! There I go again being crazy. Tomorrow is the dreadful...Thanksgiving! The horror just to write those words! Aaaaahhhhhhh!! So I wont be able to make my self write any thing tomorrow. Instead I have a nice little surprise for you all(if there is anyone reading this blog at all). Another thing I don't like about Thanksgiving this year. Its my great-grandmother's(she adopted my mom so by law she is my grandma)memorial service. I miss her alot because I was really close with her towards the end. I helped my mom take care of her(she could barely move and her alzheimers was getting pretty damn bad, I would do what her other children(except my mom)wouldn't do(whipe her butt, get her into ther car, feed her, etc.). So Thanksgiving's gonna be a sad day because we're going to spread her ashes. I would just like to say
~R.I.P Nanny, I miss you and love you!~

Moving on to how I did on my secound day of the ABC's
Goal:500cals.
Yogurt-80cals.
Sugar free pudding-80cals.
Carrot-30cals.
2cups of letuce-30cals.
4tbsp. of blue cheese-240cals.
gum-4cals.

Total:464calories.

No post tomorrow! I wont even speak of the horrible fattening food. Day after the horror Thanksgiving, I will either have a fast(1day)or just continue onto the 3rd day of the ABC's. I'll figure it out by then. Until then darlings here's another video!





Happy or sad, rich or poor, its better being thin!
<3Mimi<3